UGH!

O.K. I didn't weigh in last Saturday because I left for NICHE Friday AM and was not back until late Sat. I didn't weigh in this AM for fear :). I am just really struggling with these last 10#. I am so selfish and want to be able to eat my treats when I want too :(. I know I need to give this area to the LORD and just can't seem to do it. Ugh! Anyone who wants to pray for me - please DO! I know all things are possible with the LORD.

I know too 10# doesn't seem like a big deal, why not just live with the extra weight right? The problem is I know the 10# will only increase with time if I don't give this area completely to the LORD and get in some better, God honoring eating habits. I know a treat now and then is o.k. but I just can't get away from constant treats. I know I should treat myself in other ways, but food treats are so convenient. I am just not trusting the LORD, but trusting in food instead. UGH! UGH!! UGH!!!

Whew! I just finished my total body blast pilates work out and I must admit it felt GOOD. I showered afterwards and that always helps. I do enjoy the slightly sore feeling of a good work out, call me strange :-).

Well, I just finished the first article I decided to read to help me in this eating battle. I found it over at associated content by yahoo. I learned a lot from it. The main thing I want to try to implement is working out to relieve stress (rather than eating to relieve stress). I really thought the morning paper route was enough exercise but I am definitely stress eating SO I am going to try to work out 4 days a week.

Click here if you want to read the article: Eat like a Skinny Person and Other Weight Loss Tips

Weigh In

I did not do well on the weigh loss this week. I did not eat healthy whatsoever. I just ate. AND ate and ate.

Weigh in proved it - UP 2#!!

I just printed off a couple articles I hope to read over the duration of the weekend. I don't want to be gaining weight. I want to be 5#, o.k., now 7 # lighter. I want to keep the weigh off once I get to my goal weight. Ugh.

Interesting. I had a tough week spiritually as well. I did not make the time for daily Bible reading. I didn't memorize my verse this week. I am trying to do a verse a week. I was VERY self focused Monday and Tuesday and most of Wed. I am so thankful Drew had the kids memorize Proverbs 16:32 on Wed. or I might still be in my slump. The LORD really spoke to me through that verse. " He who is slow to anger is better than the mighty, and he who rules his spirit than, he who captures a city." I certainly was not ruling my spirit.

Lord help me to call out to you more and walk in the Spirit, not the flesh! I present my body as a living sacrifice to you. I want to honor you above all else. Help me transform my eating habits into ones that please You. Amen.

Thank you Lord

I am thanking the Lord to weigh in one pound lighter this morning. It motivates me to bring God glory in my eating habits, amounts, choices. . .

Head Hunger

Can't sleep tonight. Various children have been up with various issues :-) I have been so busy I haven't had a chance to post. Here are some late night ramblings.

I am in the battle and head hunger has won so many times the past week. I was amazed to step on the scale for my weekly weigh in on the 28th (one day early) to find my weight down a pound. I surely haven't been giving myself to the Lord the way I should, but I will continue to strive after Him being my all in all, not the food!