UGH!

O.K. I didn't weigh in last Saturday because I left for NICHE Friday AM and was not back until late Sat. I didn't weigh in this AM for fear :). I am just really struggling with these last 10#. I am so selfish and want to be able to eat my treats when I want too :(. I know I need to give this area to the LORD and just can't seem to do it. Ugh! Anyone who wants to pray for me - please DO! I know all things are possible with the LORD.

I know too 10# doesn't seem like a big deal, why not just live with the extra weight right? The problem is I know the 10# will only increase with time if I don't give this area completely to the LORD and get in some better, God honoring eating habits. I know a treat now and then is o.k. but I just can't get away from constant treats. I know I should treat myself in other ways, but food treats are so convenient. I am just not trusting the LORD, but trusting in food instead. UGH! UGH!! UGH!!!

Weigh In

I did not do well on the weigh loss this week. I did not eat healthy whatsoever. I just ate. AND ate and ate.

Weigh in proved it - UP 2#!!

I just printed off a couple articles I hope to read over the duration of the weekend. I don't want to be gaining weight. I want to be 5#, o.k., now 7 # lighter. I want to keep the weigh off once I get to my goal weight. Ugh.

Interesting. I had a tough week spiritually as well. I did not make the time for daily Bible reading. I didn't memorize my verse this week. I am trying to do a verse a week. I was VERY self focused Monday and Tuesday and most of Wed. I am so thankful Drew had the kids memorize Proverbs 16:32 on Wed. or I might still be in my slump. The LORD really spoke to me through that verse. " He who is slow to anger is better than the mighty, and he who rules his spirit than, he who captures a city." I certainly was not ruling my spirit.

Lord help me to call out to you more and walk in the Spirit, not the flesh! I present my body as a living sacrifice to you. I want to honor you above all else. Help me transform my eating habits into ones that please You. Amen.

Head Hunger

Can't sleep tonight. Various children have been up with various issues :-) I have been so busy I haven't had a chance to post. Here are some late night ramblings.

I am in the battle and head hunger has won so many times the past week. I was amazed to step on the scale for my weekly weigh in on the 28th (one day early) to find my weight down a pound. I surely haven't been giving myself to the Lord the way I should, but I will continue to strive after Him being my all in all, not the food!

Starting Over

I don't know exactly what happened today. There were successes and failures. Successes - like not eating ALL the chocolate the children gave me for Mother's Day. Failures - like not journalling every bit. I am starting fresh (again) tomorrow!

I am encouraged to stay the course on a spiritual front. Some ladies really encouraged me tonight. They stirred up my desire to go harder after the Lord. Be more faithful in my Bible reading/meditating.

It's all intertwined!

Blew It

I totally blew it on the weigh down front this weekend. Other than my weigh in, Sat. AM which was good. down 2 #! I didn't journal so I don't know how bad I blew it. I will be hitting it fresh tomorrow!

Slump

I had a really bad day. Journal - breakfast only. water - o.k. just in a total slump. Funny, I don't think I'm pmsing :-). I still plan to weigh in tomorrow. The night is young but I am pooped out. It's bed time for this Mama!

This sums up my feelings so well. Well, maybe not the stage one quite, but the other two for sure.

http://spunkyhomeschool.blogspot.com/2005/08/transformation-of-inner-me.html

The dangers of Kentucky Fried Chicken

It's finger lick'n good that is FO SHO! I was having a good day all around. Sunny Side up sort of a day. Had a mix of 4 kids with me for some garage saling in the morning. Nice lunch, miticulously counted the chicken, cheese and spinach on my two tortillas. Drank 9 cups of water by 4 PM. My calorie count was at about 1,100 when Drew suggested going out to eat tonight. I told him I didn't know how that would fit in with my cal. counting. Then I thought, I need to be flexible and should be able to do o.k. We took the KFC to a park. I had packed some plates and so forth as well as a salad for myself. In the carrying from house to van my salad got left behind. SO I decided I would have the salad when I got home and have one wing to tide me over. Long story longer, I took one bite of that wing, licked my fingers and totally lost control of myself. That skin tasted SO good! In all I ate 3 wings and 2 legs :-( or :-) depending on how you want to look at. I decided I would keep track of every bite even though I was going out of control. I did and I ended up going 443 calories over. I am too tired to give it too much thought right now. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. I am certainly not going to give up.