Lacking Self Control

Long time no post!  I lacked self control! ALL week!  What a terrible feeling. Yesterday started a new week! Today started a new day.  Each moment is new with the opportunity to choose to call out to the Lord and walk in HIM! So I have confessed my sin of overindulging (gluttony, whatever you wish to label it). I am really feeling that already/not yet tension. Already saved - heaven bound for all eternity/yet struggling to walk in the Spirit (Rom 8), struggling to conquer sin through Him(Rom 8:37 "But in all these things we overwhelmingly conquer through Him who loved us.").

WA HOO!

I declared goal today! I am official back to my life time membership status with Weight Watchers!! Something that was said several meetings ago has really helped me ever since. What do we do when we get a flat tire? Do we get out of the car in a heated rage slash the other three? No, we fix the one that's flat. Translation: What should I do when I have a bad eating binge? Figure all is lost and continue in that binge or have more binges? No, restart right thinking / hence right eating immediately. This has helped me not lose entire days, even if I have bad moments within those days. I am no longer the three tire slasher!!!!

Progress Report

I am happy to be able to entitle this Progress Report! Yes, slow but sure I am making progress. 3 # to go until goal!!!! Hip Hip - Hooray. Last week was a real struggle. We had something every day - celebrations, get togethers, social events. I caved twice but not completely. I just kept giving it to the Lord. I was pleased to step on the scale and be 2# lighter this AM!!

Starting Over

I don't know exactly what happened today. There were successes and failures. Successes - like not eating ALL the chocolate the children gave me for Mother's Day. Failures - like not journalling every bit. I am starting fresh (again) tomorrow!

I am encouraged to stay the course on a spiritual front. Some ladies really encouraged me tonight. They stirred up my desire to go harder after the Lord. Be more faithful in my Bible reading/meditating.

It's all intertwined!

Staying Encouraged

I am staying encouraged on the eating front. Had some other stress in the day which I was eventually able to surrender to the Lord. Emotions and eating go so hand in hand. I am curious to see how I do through pms. Time will tell.

Goals:

success on calories

shy on water

Long Time

Well I am back on line! We ended up, after some other trials, using You Squared for an internet provider. It has made tracking my food on Spark People so fast I love it! We had company tonight. He was an inspiration, but that is for The Tribe Talk post. Getting on to life style changes :-)

All is going well. I had trouble over the weekend. First our phone went out, which meant our dial up went out which made tracking difficult. I overcame and hand wrote (which I like to do anyway, I usually do both). Then I think, because I was out of my routine my calories got away from me early in the day and were almost used up by supper. That worked out fine too. I evaluated my hunger - nonexistent - so I thought - 20 cal. worth of salad would do me and it did. I just felt sort of off on the whole thing.

Monday dawned fresh and although I couldn't find my journalling notebook tracked on a sheet of paper. Came in good for calories and water.

Tuesday - found the journal and did well.

Wednesday - planned ahead and enjoyed dessert!

Hurray! And Goal Review

Hurray! I am thanking the Lord that I was able to stick with my new eating plan for the entire week.

Weigh In - 166! (that's down 4#)

I remembered from past experience to expect a greater loss the first week when following a new (reduced calorie) eating plan. I was thankful for the 4# loss, but don't expect that much each week.

Goals:

I decided to extend out my goal date a bit. From what I have read and what I remember from WW it is healthiest to lose 1 to 2 pounds per week. With 11 pounds to go and the 4th of July 5 weeks away I think I should give myself a few more weeks. I will set my goal at Aug. 1st.

I thought about adding work out to these but I am just so pushed for time. I will just try to play some tag and things with the kids. I am still doing the paper route about 4 days a week too.

1. Lose a total of 14 - 15#
2. Track/Journal every bite
3. Weigh again next Saturday (not sooner for psychological purposes)
4. Goal weight by Aug. 1st
5. Be accountable (Thanks Kari! and anyone who is following the blog :-))

Planning Pay Off

I met with some ladies at Village Inn tonight. I ate the piece of pie I saved my calories up for. I nibbled that pecan pie, stretching out the enjoyment of each morsel for as long as possible. Oh man did I enjoy every bite. All the same, fellowship with the ladies far sweater. A soul is eternal. Pie - gone. Shy 2 Cups of water today. I am eager to weigh in tomorrow.

Good Day

I am praising the Lord for another good day of journalling and water intake!

Over Full Feeling

Drank 12 Cups of H2O again today!

I made my calorie goal - amazingly.

Before supper I was super hungry and scarfed down three cups of popcorn. I almost forgot to measure. I grabbed a HUGE handful and was shoving it in when ding ding ding this internal alarm went off . I scarfed it down, then got out one of those custard bowls and got a cup of popcorn and took a HUGE handful back out. I felt slightly out of control as I was pigging it down. Then at supper I over ate on ground beef. I stayed within the calorie target but just ate more than I should have and boy did I feel bloated after supper. I just hate that over full feeling. I think next time I will just have 1/3 to a 1/2 Cup of the beef. Anyway - tonight when I felt like a little something about 8:00 I had to forgo it because of my supper behavior :-(

Bitin' and Writin'

All went on target today!

Map Your Route

Water intake - 12 Cups!

Journal - every bite today and within goal!

Found a neat feature on Spark People. I always wondered about how far I walk on the paper route in the AM. I kept meaning to drive out the route but found a way to do it on the Spark People site. If you click on this link you can map your route at the bottom of page. Pretty cool feature.

Day Two

I was not successful in my water intake today. Close, but still want to do better tomorrow. I tracked every bite in my journal. I went 100 calories over but I am not going to beat myself up over that. One thing I have found different between what I remember of Weight Watchers and what I am currently experiencing through Spark People. WW didn't count as much for fresh vegetables. The first 1/2 C or something was free if I remember correctly. Anyway I am attributing my 100 extra calories to that. Ultimately I want to have lost a pound or two by my weigh in on Saturday so I am not going to let the 100 extra calories worry me.

I am thankful to have an accountability partner, it helps me stay on track. Right now Kari and I are both flying high, happy to be in control of our eating instead of our eating controlling us!

Motivation

I found a note from July 3rd 2008. I was 200#. That is so motivating for me. By June of 2009 I was 152#! I remember how miserable I felt carrying the extra weight around. I enjoy a greater quality of life when I am at a comfortable weight.

Good Day

I had a successful day journaling every item I ate. My total caloric intake - 1,500, so I am in my goal range!

New goal:

• drink 10-12 Cups of water a day